Friday, March 31, 2006

life's been so hectic that i'm constantly worn out.
alright truthfully, it's because of the korean series i've been watching lately which explains my listless-ness.
haa.

work is never ending.
and a no-brainer.
thankfully most of the people there are helpful and nice.
but they can be really lame.
so much so that it takes a few seconds for me to register what they actually meant.
haha.
one of my npcc cadet inspector actually works there!
haha.
there's this guy whom we call alien.
he's really weird.
i guess he likes my name.
always calling me and giving me a look which i abhor.
its gross.
its not really resentment we're feeling towards him.
its more of fear.
haha.

that night with Ivan was fun (:

a girl messaged me online saying that a guy added her on msn and said he was horny and stuff.
and MY pic was on his display pic.
like, wrf.
i dont even know who on earth that idiot is.
he's sick man.

incoherent thoughts.
thoughts which i cant seem to comprehend.
sometimes, i dont even know myself.
not anymore.

take me with you
9:27 PM

Saturday, March 25, 2006

had what you call a job gathering yesterday evening.
met up with the upper crust peeps ; parmesh, karthik, angela and glenn.
and my polar bestie shi wei!
had sakae, as usual.
recalling the amount of noise we made, thankfully we werent chased out.
haha.
was really amusing seeing both parmesh and karthik using chopsticks.
played a silly game with parmesh and he was really slow.
we laughed till our stomach ached.
hung around the airport after that.
they refused to let angela and i return home cuz they were on for the midnight shift.
so we walked to and fro t1 and t2.
took the skytrain for about 6times.
as usual, got bullied by parmesh.
grrrr.

what really amused me was when we were at t1.
parmesh was at one of his monkey business (as usual).
normally there're 3soldiers who'd walk around armed at different intervals right.
so coincidentally, they were there when we were there.
and parmesh walked in the middle of the 3 on purpose.
leaving the rest out us in uncontrollable laughter.
suddenly one of the soldier turned to me and said "eliz ask your friend dont play".
ha. was really stunned.
then he asked "your name's eliz right?"
i dont remember seeing him.
definitely left me astounded.
haha.
and no, i didnt prompt further.

today was awesome.
met up with socks, bao and teong.
went to have a swim at sock's place.
its been coming 4years since we last went there.
those were the days manz.
went to her house thereafter and we started to reminisce the past memories through photos and autograph book.
they still remember what happened when i was in sec2 which happen to be one of the most embarrassing incident of my life!
haha.
nonetheless, those days were innocent and certainly memorable
(: (: (:

alright i'm beat.
gotta repay all my sleeping debts.
<3

take me with you
11:09 PM

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

i love paradise gang to bits and pieces!<3

so the day started off by an interview.
was such a coincidence to see shili there.
haha.
so yeah, my new job's gonna be interesting.
haha.
the agent said it would be a female working environment.
but apparently he got it wrong!
its a male one!
double zzz.
but yeah, hopefully we'd be able to sail through these 2 weeks peacefully.

then, headed to kbox.
haha
now this is hilarious.
this guy called Sky was really nice to us.
not only friendly but he fulfilled our request regarding the tibits.
so nice.
halfway through singing, this guy just walked into our room and said his friend wanted to know me.
apparently, this group of guys had been walking to and fro our room many times.
and the same guy said if i didnt wanna be his friend's friend, he'd wanna be mine.
like, wth man...
so yup.
but Sky was really nice.
hahaha.

went on to meet bao,teong,bamboo and socks.
had crystal jade.
followed up some neoprint sessions.
kind of like a standard procedure for us.
haa.
had this huge serving of ice cream thereafter at cafe cartel.
awesome (:
and as usual, we made too much noise.
it always happens.
not that im noisy, as how Ivan put it across.
but somehow whenever i'm with them or with angela and gang, we seem to cause some uncalled for disruption to the once quiet atmosphere.
hehohaaa...

then jason called.
he's the supervisor at upper crust.
and yes, i've already quit!
and he was like...asking us to go back.
chances of returning are really low.

hansel kept pestering me to go clubbing.
annoying.

thats all for now.<3sugar dreams.

take me with you
11:37 PM

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

so sunday marks the end of my job at upper crust!
its been a pleasure knowing all of them.
excluding saravanan.
haha.
yup.
time to move on!

caught the midnight movie, date movie with leonard and gang.
though i nearly fell asleep, i think it's pretty nice.
haha.
guess im the only one who thinks that way.
and it was really nice of edwin and yewquan to send me home.
to think that i snapped at edwin back in sec school who had a fetish for pinching cheeks.
those were the days.
haha.

so currently i'm jobless.
and i've no intention of returning to synovate.
it bores me.
gonna be a leg shaker for the time being.
=]

was supposed to go down for an appointment this afternoon.
in im not wrong it's with the UAN Records.
despite saying that i've no interest whatsoever, they were kinda persistent.
so i gave in.
initially thought it'd be ok if i dont turn up.
but the person called and rescheduled another appointment.
&#$%^#$^&

was at angela's house yesterday.
were signing up for the uni thing.
kinda dumb.
angela was so excited.
haha.
and the 3 of us just signed up.
like, anyhow.
haha.

was at this pet shop.
they spelt "pair" as "pear"
-___-

s.w.e.e.t
(:

take me with you
11:20 PM

Sunday, March 19, 2006

first it was modeling.
now its something about glooming artists.
why am i always getting myself into all these nonsense.
weird enough, i've no interest.
at all.

The Japanese restaurant opposite taka is awesome!
A must-go!
=]

ice skating with leonard and gang was fun (:
spent about 4 hours there.
had a series of embarrassing falls but was undeniably enjoyable.
sometimes it's more of the company you're with.
heh.
leonard go jian fei ar.
lol.
serene's damn cute.
reminds me so much of yuching.

am aching all over now.
argh.
last day of work today!
hoheha (((:

hansel has been really nice.
but its not right.

Ivan made me realize that in actual fact, you and i cant really communicate.
admittedly, what attracted you to me initially was your wit and humor.
not forgetting the other things you've said which made me think that you were ideal.
in other words, perfect.
ha, was really wrong.
i wasnt totally myself.
so many things i didnt feel like telling you.
it's definitely not the age.
we're just too different.
people asked whether i've gotten over you.
and i realized, there was nothing to get over.
just that to me, liars infuriate me.
there's no more tinge of loneliness,
no more pang of sadness.
Life can be beautiful even without you.

take me with you
9:54 AM

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

i've always wanted to leave upper crust.
but today...
unexpectedly, the thought of leaving saddens me.
everyone's persuading us not to leave.
parmesh was like saying, if we dont quit, he wont either.
even saravanan, the supervisor who turns me off completely, looked dejected.
and shiwei.
and siti.
man.
this is hard.
even though i've been there for barely 2months, i guess i'd miss the people there if i were to really quit.
apart from those tikopehs, the rest are generally nice.
but i certainly wont wanna work in the F&B line for the next 3mths odd.
i wanna do something else!
but i dont wanna work in an office.
i'll really die of boredom.
after joining SSP, realised i kinda like this job.
you know, you get to meet all kinds of people.
polite ones, sociable ones, overly-friendly ones, cocky ones blah.
can be fun. f
acing the computer 8 hours a day doing data entry would drive me up the wall.
and this is my recording-breaking job!
my previous one lasted only for 5days.
haha.
admittedly, i'm in a dilemma now.

jason, another supervisor , called to ask how to spell the word "mechanics" earlier.
and i was asleep ok!
gonna poke all his pimples tomorrow.
muhahaha.
gross.

a girl just said she's attracted to me.
like, okay...
scary.
i've no idea who she is.

why is everyone saying i've been MIA for the past few days.
weird.

ice skate ice skate ice skate (((:

take me with you
9:54 PM

Monday, March 13, 2006

ntu is huge!
it was a redundant trip.
mainly because we just went around looking at the hostels.
and not at the courses they're offering.
can't imagine living in a hostel.
hahaha.

work today was disastrous in a funny way.
first day working with a new staff, izzat.
he's only 16 this year!
i feel so old.
argh.
so anyway, he burnt 13 baguettes!
dropped a few we'd already made.
w.o.n.d.e.r.f.u.l
was damn funny.
was he plain unlucky or what?
hahahaha.

though it was only the second time i've seen him, we seem to be able to click quite well.
ok maybe i'm the friendly one.
haha.
talked about lotsa stuff.
mainly about his ex.
and i can tell he'd be a great bf.
whenever he reminisces the sweet memories he'd had with his ex, his eyes revealed that inner happiness within him.
yet at the same time, pain pierces through that same pair of eyes.
just hope he'll get back together with her.

i'm so tired.
blah.

it's nonsensical.
that day i was approached by this insurance agent at jurong east mrt.
thanks to hansel who was so damn late.
so anyway, being helpful, i wrote down my particulars on a piece of dont-know-what form,
crossing my fingers that he wouldnt call and persuade me to buy insurance.
and i received a message the next day from that guy wanting to be friends.
was i the silly one or was he the witty one.
he's the same age as my sister.
blah.

and whats up with the word "wor"?
its kinda annoying when i see guys who type such words.
it's a real turn off.
especially when it comes from guys who are like 27 uears old.

i'm quitting my job at upper crust!
okay, this may be the 1274164 times you've heard this but this time its really true!
its my last week this week!
/double beams.

take me with you
10:15 PM

Friday, March 10, 2006

caught Final Destination 3 with Linus yesterday
yeah like, finally (the meet up i mean).
poor linus.
he's fretting over his age.
22 this year.
hahaha.
anyway thanks for the souvenir you've gotten me from thailand.
and i've finally gotten bao's belated present!
she's so gonna love it (:

didnt know how to react when glenn told me that he wanted me to listen to one song.
apparently it was a love song.
and joanne, another polar friend, just had to make things worst.
asking glenn whether he's serious about me in my presence.
whatever man.

the way hansel's behaving is really scaring me.
i really dont wanna be a third party.
cant tolerate guys who sweet-talk.
cant help but feel irated.

there were times when i really dislike my mum.
and its not because she nags alot or is particular and strict about certain things.
outsiders just wouldnt understand and i aint revealing.
yes, it's hurtful at times.
and my family isnt like those you see on touching drama series where the parents give their children morning hugs and kisses while telling them how much they love them.
in fact, we seldom communicate.
maybe its just me.
and my dad's someone who doesnt really know how to express himself clearly.
initially it felt kinda pathetic.
you know, its like, though we're in the same vehicle, we would remain silent from one destination to another.
its until recently that i realised i've been an imbecile all along.
its like, all of a sudden i'm surrounded by friends with family problems.
apart from providing a listening ear, there's really nothing i can do.
but it hit me real hard.
i'm actually very fortunate.
something which i've just come to realise.
though we do not practise physical affections, deep down i know what my parents really care.
and yes, i love them.

we always wish that life could get better,
always complaining about the things we do not have.
there should be a time when we should slow down our pace from pursuing the things we desire.
instead, appreciate and treasure the things that we have now.
life would be better this way.
(:

yay another ice skating session with leonard and gang.
/beams.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dy8Wx_qMci4&search=cai%20hong%20tian%20tang
this website is a continuation of the MTV Feng by Jay Chou.
it's really nice.
get your hanky ready.

take me with you
12:21 AM

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

i'm dying of exhaustion.

went ice skating with hansel.
ha.
was really funny cos he kept falling.
that guy can really eat man.
ok, maybe its just me who's really picky about the food i consume recently.
so anyway, walked around aimlessly around orchard while he comtemplated whether he should get the Guess shirt which costs $145.
haha.
talked about lots of stuff.
his gf, my life, his life and other rubbish.
but what he says scares me.
i'm glad i'm able to make him smile.
but it feels weird when he says stuff like wanting to ask me out on all my off days this week and that what i think actually matters to him.
and he actually didnt let his gf know that he was meeting me!
i certainly wouldnt like that if my bf meets another gal without telling me!
heh.
i just hope that history doesnt repeat itself.
what happened last year really startled me.

and i was off to work.
midnight shift.
boo.
an advantage when i'm working with glenn is that he volunteers to do most of the tedious stuff.
haha.
had some photo sessions as well.
though the 2 of us and shiwei, my polar friend looked like zombies.

there was this group of guys who were damn annoying.
the first 2 came and said:
"thanks elizabeth"
when i handed them their change.
"oh thats your name!"
like, duh.
then they moved on to polar and this guy asked another guy whether he wanted to buy from elizabeth.
like, hello?!
shiwei was damn confused.
haha.
then they said stuff like
"hey my friend wants to date you cos he said you look cute!"
felt like giving them several tight slaps.
i aint that violent just annoyed.
and before leaving this guy said
"hey elizabeth can i have your name pls".
so not funny.
"u're 19? just completed your psle?"
like...wth?
"can you give YS your number?"
please go and bang the wall please.
and glenn was laughing his head off all this while.
*$^#%&!@

and an ang moh actually said "you look really cute" when glenn just commented i look ghostly because of my dark eye rings.
ha..
nearly burst out laughing.

ok i'm on midnight shift again.
and bet i'll look twice as ghostly compared to last night later.

am so into Air Supply recently.
their songs are really nice.
(:

/triple yawn

take me with you
9:23 PM

Sunday, March 05, 2006

my mind is constantly thinking of the many "what ifs"
its undeniable that i still think of you.
of us.
i'm not sure what i'm actually missing.
is it you, or is it the times we've had.
is it the endless conversation, or is it just talking to you.

sometimes i wonder whether you'd actually cared.
what was going through your mind back then.
what did it mean to you.
would you have done the same thing if we were sober back then.
but i know.
these are questions which would never be answered.
even if it is, it's meaningless.

they call you all sort of negative names.
some say its your lost.
some say i deserve someone better.
some say i'd be a great gf.
but dont they ever get it?
saying all this doesnt make things better.
ironically, these are what i say when i'm comforting a lovelorn person.
and i can tell you truthfully, i dont give a shit about the comments they've made.
i've heard them a thousand times starting when i was 15.
after all, these are their views.
what i want is simply the views of the person whom i care.
then again, it's meaningless now.

i was reasoning with this person yesterday about the beauty of life.
when deep down, i'm being doubtful about it.
no, i aint blaming you.
neither am i expecting any sympathy whatsoever.
i just feel incongruous.

you were the first person i thought of when i got my results.
the image of you occupied my mind when i nearly fainted this morning.
whenever something happens, i want you to be the first to know.
but do i even occupy the slightest memory space in your mind?
and again, the answer to this is meaningless now.
sometimes i just forget that you're gone.

i'm afraid i'd bump into you coz you live so near.
if that happens,
should i just ignore you?
or behave as though i just bumped into a havent-contacted-for-a-long-time friend?
the weird thing is, why then do i keep looking out for you hoping to see you?
sheer contradiction, i know.
i cant comprehend such absurd thoughts either.

you appeared abruptly in my life.
and now you're gone,
as swiftly as you came.
even then, i'll never forget you.

please be happy.

take me with you
10:24 PM

Saturday, March 04, 2006

past memories torment me.
its true, do not live in the past.
but the past serves as a pillar of support and pushes me forward to fulfil my dreams.

take me with you
8:17 PM

Friday, March 03, 2006

i felt so fit on tuesday.
hahaha.

cycled for more than 4 hours with lionel.
to pasir ris park.
but we were stucked in bedok reservoir for about 2hours because lionel couldnt find the correct route of the park connector from his place.
and we ended up back in bedok reservoir about 3 times.
so anyway, the wonderful me led the way after lionel gave up!
and we found the route!
hahahah.
we ended up retrieving our childhood memories at the playground, something which lionel's deprived of.
haaa...
but then it started to RAIN.
and we cycled home in the RAIN.
i love it!
cycling in the RAIN that is.
the feeling's great.
and lionel loh actually sent me home.
haa..
stunned.

rushed like a lunatic thereafter.
met bao and we'd jap cuisine.
finally found a korean restaurant!
its at far east.
mum's gonna love it.
stayed over at bao's place after that.
talked about lotsa stuff.
it's really hilarious listening to bao's cranky reasoning.

and wednesday was THE day.
met sg and bao before yf and the rest.
the wait was really scary.
i swear.
my results may not be perfect.
but i'm satisfied.
because i didnt expect such grades.
i thought i'd flopped chem.
hahaha.
mj did well.
not surprisingly well because it was expected.
like, duh.
told mum my results after that.
and in the evening she smsed : so you got abdd?
i was like, huh? since when did i take 4subs.
when i told her the grades again she said : wah so good? heh heh...
sometimes my mum's damn funny, in a silly way.
hahahaha.
would really really wanna thank everyone for their well wishes.
especially linus's.
am most probably heading for ntu.

the unfortunate thing is sg, bao, yihan didnt do well.
really have no idea how to console them.
especially when bao broke down on the phone.
felt utterly hopeless.
we cant celebrate together.

went to kbox after that.
was really fun!
nearly lost my voice.
met justin and his friends at katong later.
apparently someone opened our bottle.
it sucks being drunk.
puked like crazy.
my head hurt like shit and the room looked as if it was spinning.
its gonna be the last time i'm getting that drunk.
really gotta thank justin for sending me home.
but hey it wasnt because i was depressed or anything ok.

why make life miserable when life's all about making the correct choices.
the endless sky, billions of people, never-ending landscapes, happiness is bound to be somewhere.
or so i believe.

my new obsession : birkenstocks (:

i cared.
but guess i didnt love you even though i tried.
so you dont have to feel apologetic.
(:
then again, i know i would if we'd carried on.
there're certain things which you'd never know.
but its better this way.
We could have had a beautiful ending.
But ours barely started.

take me with you
6:32 AM